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2 Mar 2015 03:09 amI'm really starting to freak out now.
I have one assignment left to do this term. And it's my big final video worth 400 points. I have a 97% (I think) in the class and have gotten 100% on the other three videos. I'm not even that worried about making the damn thing. The problem is I can't write the script. I've been trying for days and I get through the intro and then nothing makes sense.
The really aggravating part is that I have this very detailed outline I wrote last week for a graded assignment. I thought it would be pretty easy to just put it all together into paragraphs, but that isn't happening. I've had all week to work on it, but only started on Friday. I figured there was plenty of time before it was due Tuesday at 9pm. Now, as usual, I'm scrambling, stressed, and sick to my stomach.
I think the real problem is the content of the assignment. The stuff they want us to discuss doen't really flow together like the other assignments.
We had to choose a technology and then analyze it using a theme we studied. I chose to do body cameras used by the police to curb misconduct. It's a timely topic that I found interesting to research.
The main problem I'm having is that the questions we need to answer feel like they repeat and are not in a logical order. First we are supposed to discuss the tech--what is it, what forces are leading to its development, who is the intended user, who benefits from the tech, where is it in adoption of use, is it widely available. This part is mostly easy.
The second part is supposed to analyze the tech in relation to society. Sounds easy enough, except the information I have basically repeats the stuff from above--where the tech came from, how society is shaping its development, how the tech is benefiting society, etc.
The third part is where we're supposed to use our theme and again I feel like I'm repeating. I have to identify the theme and explain why it's relevant, describe how the tech is impacting the theme, and discuss positive and negative implications of the tech.
None of this flows in a logical order. I've written the beginning five or six times. I can get a nice opening paragraph that segues into the overview of the tech, but then there is no natural way to transition into the stuff about society without mixing up stuff from the theme analysis. That just muddles everything up and it has to be in a logical order (although it doesn't have to be in the one they suggest). I can't seem to sort the info into an order that works.
I also can't figure out a strong thesis statement which is really affecting my ability to write the rest of the script.
I was having such a hard time concentrating yesterday that I went to Sharis at around 9pm and sat there until around 1am when my laptop died. Still nothing came to me and I usually get a lot done there. I did get my other assignments finished, though.
I think part of the problem is that I've gone off my meds which is never a good thing. My prescriptions ran out last Tuesday or Wednesday, but our medicaid insurance was changed without notice. Our old insurance company was dropped and we were shifted to another one with new doctors. Of course the one they randomly put us on doesn't cover our doctors. And they will only cover prescriptions if they are written by a network doctor. That would mean finding a new shrink, go through the hassle of the initial visit, getting to know the person, etc, just to have them rewrite the prescription I have (if they even agree with it). I was beyond pissed with this. There was no warning. New cards arrived at the beginning of February. I had to go online to figure out what was going on.
I already requested changing insurance companies but it doesn't take effect until to day. BUT Patrick went back to work on Tuesday so our regular insurance should be back by now.
Anyway, the only med I've taken all week has been the Wellbutrin because I had a bunch of the 150mg tablets left from before. I'm out of the other two. I think I'm starting to feel it. I've been super edgy the last few days, but also can't concentrate on anything. I just don't care and everything feels like a challenge. So far my mood hasn't gone haywire, but it's taking a lot to stay calm most of the time.
This was a bad time for this to happen with this assignment due. I don't have time to baby my mental illness.
On a happier note, this new term that starts next week is my last. I'm taking a survey of American Lit course and intro to anthropology (an easy 100-level course). For the lit class we have to read To Kill a Mockingbird, Rule of the Bone, and some short stories and analyze them around the theme of loss of innocence. Love it. We also have to choose another novel to read for our final paper--no ideas yet. I'm actually looking forward to the lit class.
Just nine more weeks and I graduate!
I have one assignment left to do this term. And it's my big final video worth 400 points. I have a 97% (I think) in the class and have gotten 100% on the other three videos. I'm not even that worried about making the damn thing. The problem is I can't write the script. I've been trying for days and I get through the intro and then nothing makes sense.
The really aggravating part is that I have this very detailed outline I wrote last week for a graded assignment. I thought it would be pretty easy to just put it all together into paragraphs, but that isn't happening. I've had all week to work on it, but only started on Friday. I figured there was plenty of time before it was due Tuesday at 9pm. Now, as usual, I'm scrambling, stressed, and sick to my stomach.
I think the real problem is the content of the assignment. The stuff they want us to discuss doen't really flow together like the other assignments.
The main problem I'm having is that the questions we need to answer feel like they repeat and are not in a logical order. First we are supposed to discuss the tech--what is it, what forces are leading to its development, who is the intended user, who benefits from the tech, where is it in adoption of use, is it widely available. This part is mostly easy.
The second part is supposed to analyze the tech in relation to society. Sounds easy enough, except the information I have basically repeats the stuff from above--where the tech came from, how society is shaping its development, how the tech is benefiting society, etc.
The third part is where we're supposed to use our theme and again I feel like I'm repeating. I have to identify the theme and explain why it's relevant, describe how the tech is impacting the theme, and discuss positive and negative implications of the tech.
None of this flows in a logical order. I've written the beginning five or six times. I can get a nice opening paragraph that segues into the overview of the tech, but then there is no natural way to transition into the stuff about society without mixing up stuff from the theme analysis. That just muddles everything up and it has to be in a logical order (although it doesn't have to be in the one they suggest). I can't seem to sort the info into an order that works.
I also can't figure out a strong thesis statement which is really affecting my ability to write the rest of the script.
I was having such a hard time concentrating yesterday that I went to Sharis at around 9pm and sat there until around 1am when my laptop died. Still nothing came to me and I usually get a lot done there. I did get my other assignments finished, though.
I think part of the problem is that I've gone off my meds which is never a good thing. My prescriptions ran out last Tuesday or Wednesday, but our medicaid insurance was changed without notice. Our old insurance company was dropped and we were shifted to another one with new doctors. Of course the one they randomly put us on doesn't cover our doctors. And they will only cover prescriptions if they are written by a network doctor. That would mean finding a new shrink, go through the hassle of the initial visit, getting to know the person, etc, just to have them rewrite the prescription I have (if they even agree with it). I was beyond pissed with this. There was no warning. New cards arrived at the beginning of February. I had to go online to figure out what was going on.
I already requested changing insurance companies but it doesn't take effect until to day. BUT Patrick went back to work on Tuesday so our regular insurance should be back by now.
Anyway, the only med I've taken all week has been the Wellbutrin because I had a bunch of the 150mg tablets left from before. I'm out of the other two. I think I'm starting to feel it. I've been super edgy the last few days, but also can't concentrate on anything. I just don't care and everything feels like a challenge. So far my mood hasn't gone haywire, but it's taking a lot to stay calm most of the time.
This was a bad time for this to happen with this assignment due. I don't have time to baby my mental illness.
On a happier note, this new term that starts next week is my last. I'm taking a survey of American Lit course and intro to anthropology (an easy 100-level course). For the lit class we have to read To Kill a Mockingbird, Rule of the Bone, and some short stories and analyze them around the theme of loss of innocence. Love it. We also have to choose another novel to read for our final paper--no ideas yet. I'm actually looking forward to the lit class.
Just nine more weeks and I graduate!
