jennickels: (sg1: groovy)
So, yesterday I wrote a long, sad post about my cat being missing. I was really worried about him and starting to think he would never come home. My husband and daughter insisted I was overreacting because it's not the first time one of the cats (including Silver) disappeared for days, but my mental health has not been good lately, so I couldn't escape the spiral of despair his absence was causing.

Thankfully, my family was right. After being gone for nearly 60 hours, he was waiting at the back door, frantically pawing at the glass to get in when I went to make dinner last night.

I let him in and he ran right for the food then spent the rest of the night curled up next to me in bed while I watched TV. As far as I can tell, he's fine. I didn't feel or see any new injuries or anything. He was just out and about, I guess.

I made him stay in all night, locking him in my bathroom when he started whining at 5am to go out (like he always does). But then in the chaos of everyone getting ready and leaving for the day, he got let out anyway. Sigh. There was just so much going on. The other two cats were fighting, my grandson wanted breakfast, my son was complaining about going to school right when the bus was coming, my husband was taking out the trash, I needed to get to the store before he left for work, and my daughters were leaving for work and school. It was just chaos, and in it, I just let Silver out without really thinking. 

Hopefully, he doesn't stay out all night again or he comes home in the morning like he usually does. The fact that he came back after two and a half days will hopefully keep my anxiety in check this time if he doesn't show up by tomorrow.

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16 Feb 2022 10:52 am
jennickels: (100: meet again)
So, I posted before about my cat, Silver, being hurt and how I tried really hard to keep him inside, but he won in the end. I started letting him outside again a little over two weeks since he got hurt.

Now he's missing, and I feel ill.

I let him out around 5am, Monday morning. He usually wants out at this time every day. It's become routine so I dragged myself out of bed when he started whining and let him out. I squashed down the growing anxiety and fell back asleep. I figured he'd be waiting to come in when I got up in a couple hours because it was cold and raining.

Well, he wasn't there. He wasn't there all day Monday and he wasn't there every time I checked on Tuesday. Now it's Wednesday. It's been over 48 hours since I've seen him. It's not like him to stay gone that long although it has happened before. Usually, he comes home a few times a day to eat. I also know the neighbors leave food out for the cats so they don't have to come in to eat, but Silver likes to follow me around so he usually comes when I call him. But he hasn't come home.

I feel so sick to my stomach. But I've also kind of resigned myself to never seeing him again. I'm trying not to think about it to much because then scenarios like him injured and dying in a ditch somewhere alone come to mind, and I can't deal with that. I can only deal with him being found by another family who took him in or him just lost somewhere but able to survive.

Why did I let him back out again? I was just so tired. The constant whining and stress of keeping him from peeing all over my room got to me so I gave in to his desire to roam. I should have kept him in more. I don't know. I don't think it would have mattered. He would have gotten out eventually. I knew I was going to cave to his wants eventually because he was so miserable.

My husband thinks I'm overreacting and he'll be back like he always is. I hope so, but I'm also terrified he'll come home hurt again, and I can't afford to treat him nor do I have a way to get him to the ER if he comes home today. I have no car, and everyone with a car is gone today.

Ugh. 

Anyway, keep Silver in your thoughts and maybe he'll come home and just be hungry and tired and not want to leave again for a couple days.

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