Ideas and Energy

Today's snowflake_challenge is to talk about "an idea you wish you had the time / talent / energy to do."

I had to laugh when I read that because that would be all the ideas. All the things. Anything.

I mentioned this in a friend-locked post, but I have chronic fatigue which severely limits what I can do on any given day. It also gives me debilitating brain fog that makes it hard to think. Like I literally struggle to find simple words in my mind. I start to talk slowly and slur my words because I can't think of the right words I need to say. Writing is impossible. It's gotten so bad that my brain is mostly blank--I can't even come up with ideas to brainstorm anymore.

So if I had to talk about an idea I wish I had the energy for that would be every idea I've ever come up with. And I wish I could just come up with new ideas again. It's so frustrating to go from writing tons of stories every year to lacking creativity all together. I'm having a hard time writing this post because I can't organize my thoughts.

If I had to choose some ideas I wish I had the energy for there are a few that come to mind. Last February, I wrote the beginning of two different Avatar the Last Airbender AU fics that I really enjoyed writing. I think I was manic at the time because once I went to bed, the urge and ability to write ended. I've never been able to continue the stories.
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