I don't know how you are doing it. I loved having babies but I don't think I could purposefully put myself through this to have another one. It was so hard with Jack because being pregnant screws with my mood. I was so depressed while I was pregnant with him. Hormones so out of whack. It was scary and I wasn't sure I was going to get through the whole thing. And then I was super depressed right after. Bad enough my OB put me on something for my own protection.
Because of how I react to the hormone change in pregnancy/after birth I missed out on enjoying just about everything to do with both. I look back now and realized I missed the first months of each kids' life because I was in a fog of depression so thick it took all my energy to do the basics of diapers and bottles. I barely ate myself during those times and got little sleep (as new mothers know). Sucked.
And the last year I've been so out of it (even with the meds) that I've missed another 12 months of their lives. I've taken almost no pictures of them. I'm missing Jack grow up because I can't deal with being around the kids right now. It tears me apart inside.
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Date: 18 Mar 2013 01:41 am (UTC)Because of how I react to the hormone change in pregnancy/after birth I missed out on enjoying just about everything to do with both. I look back now and realized I missed the first months of each kids' life because I was in a fog of depression so thick it took all my energy to do the basics of diapers and bottles. I barely ate myself during those times and got little sleep (as new mothers know). Sucked.
And the last year I've been so out of it (even with the meds) that I've missed another 12 months of their lives. I've taken almost no pictures of them. I'm missing Jack grow up because I can't deal with being around the kids right now. It tears me apart inside.