why do I even cook?
6 Feb 2006 09:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jennickelsI am just so frustrated with my family right now. Especially dh. Normally I like to cook. I prefer it if everyone is home. When dh's schedule has him working during dinner I don't usually cook anything special. Normally I just make sandwiches or mac and cheese since it is just the kids eating. And save the good dinners for his day off.
But sometimes I wonder why I cook at all. The last month he was getting home at 3. Dinner is supposed to be between 5 and 6. Half the time I would spend an hour cooking and then he wasn't hungry because he decided to eat lunch late or eat when he gets home from work. He won't even get off the computer or turn his playstation off to sit with us while we eat. Things like family time aren't as important as screaming obsenities at his Madden game while the kids try to eat dinner.
Tonight I made the kids hamburger macaroni. Which is just shells and cheese with hamburger and peas mixed in. They love it and it is easy to make. For me and dh I made pea soup. My first attempt and it turned out really good. And was really easy too. Dh's new schedule gets him home around 8, but he had to stop at the store and get bread first. Of course he gets home and I'm excited to see what he thinks of the soup, but he doesn't feel good so he's not having any. So what was the point? I could have just had a hot pocket. I waste more time cooking for no body.
I understand he wasn't feeling well, but there is always something. Brenna also didn't eat any of the meat from her food. She picked around it and ate the peas and macaroni. She does that all the time. There is always something I make that someone doesn't like. Most of the time Meagan only eats one thing out of everything I make (usually the veggies or rice). I just want to give up and feed them PB&J. That is what dh does. If I wasn't around they would only eat cereal for breakfast and PB&J every day for lunch and dinner because he doesn't think he needs to make anything else for them. That is if he feeds them at all, because, you know, if he isn't hungry then no one else in the house is. And he gets mad if they ask for food. He can go all day only eating once. The kids sure can't do that. Well Meagan can, but it's not healthy. He was up with the kids this morning and didn't give them breakfast. I got up at 10:30 as he was leaving for work. I had to get Meagan ready for school, change Brenna's diaper and listen to the kids cry that they were starving. Meagan didn't want to go to school because she was so hungry. Luckily they eat lunch before they go to class. What the hell? He can't do something so simple as feed his kids and change a diaper in the morning. I know reading his message boards are so important @@
I at least get off line to make lunch and dinner and do the dishes and clean up and etc etc. He doesn't think he has to do anything at home since he works. Big woop. So he works 8 hours a day. My work day never ends and when he is here my work actually increases. I don't ever get breaks. I don't ever leave the house or not have the kids with me. He works his 8 hours and then sits around the house in his underwear playing video games and yelling at the kids while I do everything else.
Can you tell I am just pissed lately. Must be the hormones.
But sometimes I wonder why I cook at all. The last month he was getting home at 3. Dinner is supposed to be between 5 and 6. Half the time I would spend an hour cooking and then he wasn't hungry because he decided to eat lunch late or eat when he gets home from work. He won't even get off the computer or turn his playstation off to sit with us while we eat. Things like family time aren't as important as screaming obsenities at his Madden game while the kids try to eat dinner.
Tonight I made the kids hamburger macaroni. Which is just shells and cheese with hamburger and peas mixed in. They love it and it is easy to make. For me and dh I made pea soup. My first attempt and it turned out really good. And was really easy too. Dh's new schedule gets him home around 8, but he had to stop at the store and get bread first. Of course he gets home and I'm excited to see what he thinks of the soup, but he doesn't feel good so he's not having any. So what was the point? I could have just had a hot pocket. I waste more time cooking for no body.
I understand he wasn't feeling well, but there is always something. Brenna also didn't eat any of the meat from her food. She picked around it and ate the peas and macaroni. She does that all the time. There is always something I make that someone doesn't like. Most of the time Meagan only eats one thing out of everything I make (usually the veggies or rice). I just want to give up and feed them PB&J. That is what dh does. If I wasn't around they would only eat cereal for breakfast and PB&J every day for lunch and dinner because he doesn't think he needs to make anything else for them. That is if he feeds them at all, because, you know, if he isn't hungry then no one else in the house is. And he gets mad if they ask for food. He can go all day only eating once. The kids sure can't do that. Well Meagan can, but it's not healthy. He was up with the kids this morning and didn't give them breakfast. I got up at 10:30 as he was leaving for work. I had to get Meagan ready for school, change Brenna's diaper and listen to the kids cry that they were starving. Meagan didn't want to go to school because she was so hungry. Luckily they eat lunch before they go to class. What the hell? He can't do something so simple as feed his kids and change a diaper in the morning. I know reading his message boards are so important @@
I at least get off line to make lunch and dinner and do the dishes and clean up and etc etc. He doesn't think he has to do anything at home since he works. Big woop. So he works 8 hours a day. My work day never ends and when he is here my work actually increases. I don't ever get breaks. I don't ever leave the house or not have the kids with me. He works his 8 hours and then sits around the house in his underwear playing video games and yelling at the kids while I do everything else.
Can you tell I am just pissed lately. Must be the hormones.
