freak out time!

[jennickels]

It's Halloween.  ZOMG where did the time go?!?!?!?!?

The kids have all left for school and the house is a wreck.  It's going to be a crazy day.  I have to clean the house up before 1pm.  My oldest gets home from school around noon.  The other kids get home at 1pm.  Then at 1:30 or so we have to leave to go back to the school for parent teacher conferences.  Nora's is at 1:40pm-2pm, Brenna's is at 2:15pm-2:40pm and Owen's is at 3pm until around 3:20pm.  Then it's back home to figure out dinner really quick because two of the kids need extensive makeup (they are zombies and want their faces painted up) which will take awhile and we want to head out kind of early because Jack is sure to be cranky and it's only supposed to be 51F today so when it starts getting dark the temperature is going to plummet.  Plus the kids have school in the morning so they need to get to bed as close to their bedtimes as possible (which is 7pm for Nora and 8pm for the older kids, although Nora doesn't have school tomorrow).  The two with makeup on will both need showers.  It's going to be insane all day.  And it's my responsibility to pull it all off.  My husband has the day off but he won't help with any of it, he considers the kids my job (as in getting them ready for stuff and school things, holidays... he doesn't do that stuff).  He also won't help me clean up the house or cook dinner because he doesn't care if the house is clean or there is fresh cooked food.  He'd just have the kids have cold sandwiches again (which might end up happening because I have no idea what to make, we have almost no food left again and I'm missing ingredients to every recipe I know and there's no money to buy that stuff).

Anyway, that's not what the post is about.  More it's about FREAKING OUT!  NaNo starts at midnight.  Noooooo!!!!!  I'm so not ready this year.  I really think I burnt myself out with all the writing I did during the year.  I haven't been able to write pretty much anything in months.  The most I did were a couple drabbles for stargateland (which won me a tie for 1st and a tie for 3rd, w00t!).  200 words in 2 months.  That's horrible.  We have Halloween stories do tonight and I started one but only got 2 paragraphs and hate it.  I like the concept I picked but can't seem to write it.

That is bad.  Very, very bad considering NaNo starts tonight and I don't feel like writing anything.  Part of me wants to just quit but I got the kids involved this year and if I quit I feel like a failure for not even trying.  It's driving me crazy.  It's not helping that I have almost no idea what my story is about.  I haven't done any planning.  I just don't feel it this year as much as I love my story idea.  I thought maybe switching to a fanfic (something easy) would help but I can't even think of a good SG-1 plot that would get me to 50k words.  Last year's SG-1 NaNo is still unfinished at 56k words.

I want to scream.  The block is frustrating me and the family is on my last nerve.  All they do is fight with each other.  It's non-stop screaming in the house all the time.  Not one moment of peace until they are all (hubby included) in bed for the night and then I'm up until all hours of the night trying to do things I enjoy in peace.  But then I have to get up with the kids in the morning.  Last year my husband was working nights so he didn't leave for work until like 10am or something.  So I was staying up writing until 2am and sleeping until he left for work.  The last few months he's been working mornings so he's up at 3 or 4am and gets home at 2pm.  But he's tired from getting up early so he takes a 2 hour nap and then goes to bed at 8pm so he's no help with anything and I can't take a nap no matter how tired I am because his rest and needs come first since he makes the money.

I think his schedule changes next week and he's on days. which means he doesn't have to leave until 7am.  Not that it helps me since I get up at 7am anyway.  Sigh.  Not sure I'm going to make it to 50k this year.  I'm just too tired.

And Jack lost a shoe.  Again.  Ugh, what is with him and missing shoes.  We just bought this pair and one has gone missing twice already and he's only worn them twice.  Now I have to search the house to find the dang shoe before tonight because his old shoes don't fit.

Comments

[virkatjol.livejournal.com]

I can't even imagine halloween with 5 kids. Well, I can't imagine having 5 kids, period. Or one. I think I'd be jailed for killin'. HAHAH

GOOD LUCK!!

[anna-sg1.livejournal.com]

Oh wow! I admire you hon'. I would not be asble to pull all that off in one day without dying or something. :O ♥

[campylobacter.livejournal.com]

Hope your kids are having a good time and will be getting medical check-ups soon.

Because this is my 1st year of NaNoWriMo, I'm gonna be laid back about it. I'm breaking the rules; I don't give a fark whether I hit 1667 words each day of if I even hit 50k words by 30 Nov. I'm basically just gonna keep a word count on how much I Tweet, Tumbl, & LJ during the month of November. No big deal.

Why not take it easy on yourself & "break" the rules? Write 50,000 words of finishing WiPs, doing drabbles, dusting off shorter fic plotbunnies?