to counter all the negative

[jennickels]

So I was trying to think of something positive that has been going on in my life to counter all the crap I rant about because it's just annoying me and it's frustrating to only have bad stuff to post about.

And then it hit me: writing.

I'm sure you all noticed I posted a bunch of stories recently.  I had a great writing sprint last week.  I forget what day it was but I decided to turn off the TV in my room because it's a huge distraction (I put the TV in there around Christmas when I was really depressed and needed something to just relax and zone out).  I decided I would write.  Like I told myself firmly, "WRITE!"  I had a bunch of challenges due so I started with the one due first.  And the more I wrote the easier it got.  I finished 3 stories the first night and another the next night.  And I started a 4th that I have yet to finish but I'm working on it.

It was such a wonderful feeling to do all that writing.  Three nights in a row I put down quite a few words in my notebook.  In fact I filled about half of it up and almost ran a brand new pen out of ink.  In three days!  Unfortunately I haven't had a chance to really write since then.  I was going to work on a drabble last night but hubby got home and said to just come to bed since I looked so tired.  His new schedule (now working nights and getting home at 10pm) is throwing me off.

I had this goal of writing at least the front and back of a notebook page every night but I just haven't felt well enough (mentally) to do it.  But I really want to start making an effort.  I'm so excited to be writing again. 

And apparently my one story, The Logic of Picking Up Women, is really popular.  Someone rec'd it over at Gateworld and I've had a ton of hits and reviews at ff.net plus quite a few on my LJ.  I even got some reviews at AO3.  That made me feel all warm and fuzzy and a little guilty because I haven't commented to any of my ff.net reviews in a long time (I'm told this is the polite thing to do for an author).  I always comment on the reviews left on my LJ (unless I missed a few... it wasn't on purpose, though, LJ has been screwing with their notifications the last week).

So, yay, a happy post.

Also, the Vicodin is making me feel all calm and cheery, lol.

Comments

[thothmes.livejournal.com]

Just be careful with that Vicodin. You really don't need to add an addiction to your life, and that stuff is really good at that!

But, yay! writing success. The good reviews are well deserved.

Medication really is helping you with your outlook on life. You are able to find the good things when you look now. It makes me kvell to see it.

And now I need to toddle off and practice piano with The Whirlwind.

[jennickels.livejournal.com]

You really don't need to add an addiction to your life, and that stuff is really good at that!

Oh, don't I know it. When he brought that stuff home the other day I had a slight panic attack because I was feeling really crappy (emotionally) and it was so tempting to just take one so I could have one night being relaxed and calm and all that. But I resisted because I know how easily I get hooked and how hard it is to stop once you start feeling like that (each c-section I left 1 pill in the bottle after recovery, saving it just in case but never using it).

I even said that to myself when I was really, really thinking of taking one (I even took it out of the bottle and set it in front of me). I just kept thinking the last thing I needed was to get addicted to pain killers on top of all my other crap. And I felt guilty in case my husband really needed them. So I put it back and didn't think of them again after that.

I was quite proud.

[thothmes.livejournal.com]

You should be.