Patrick is talking about doing this but I don't give it much credence. He says he'll call for me all the time but never does and I can't do it myself because of being crazy stupid with phones. He wants me to start taking it again now because I'm not eating or sleeping. Everything has been so fucked up since I stopped taking the Paxil.
I just don't know if I want to go back on it just to have the doctor take me off and go through this all over again. It's hell. Patrick was worried I'd get too used to it then it wouldn't work for the PMS then I'd have to up the dosage etc etc etc. Which I worry about, too. But he suggested maybe I take it every other day, just enough to keep it in my system. Maybe I should have done that when I first realized how bad the withdrawal was going to be.
I could have taken it every other day for a little bit, then every three days if I felt I still needed it. Something other than cold turkey and feeling like crap. I went from excited about life to barely functioning in about 3 days (and the days in between were not fun).
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Date: 17 Mar 2013 09:18 pm (UTC)I just don't know if I want to go back on it just to have the doctor take me off and go through this all over again. It's hell. Patrick was worried I'd get too used to it then it wouldn't work for the PMS then I'd have to up the dosage etc etc etc. Which I worry about, too. But he suggested maybe I take it every other day, just enough to keep it in my system. Maybe I should have done that when I first realized how bad the withdrawal was going to be.
I could have taken it every other day for a little bit, then every three days if I felt I still needed it. Something other than cold turkey and feeling like crap. I went from excited about life to barely functioning in about 3 days (and the days in between were not fun).