sick of school
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jennickelsI'm just sick of the bullshit involved with school. I'm considering being done with it.
We have a final portfolio due in photography. I haven't really started it because it should be easy. We have to choose our ten best photos and make a powerpoint about them (and/or write a paper describing them). It's the same thing we did for our final project which I got 98% on. So it's due Tuesday. I've made two slides and wrote the intro to the paper but haven't touched it in a week. I figured I have time. Today I decided to check the module information to make sure I've got all the other assignments squared away. I happen to glance at the description of the portfolio assignment and see there's an extra paragraph. I almost missed it, then reread it five times before I started to fume.
Apparently we are also supposed to take 10 new photos on a theme and submit them in the powerpoint. WHAT THE FUCK! I pulled out my binder for the class where I print the official syllabus and NO WHERE does it say we have to take 10 new photos to include. I am so pissed. I'm shaking I'm so angry. I was not planning on having to take more photos this week. I knew what the assignment entailed and had my week planned to to accommodate that.
Thank god I looked at the module today otherwise I would have failed the assignment not realizing there was added parts. I just can't even describe the anger I'm feeling. We got links to evaluations the other day. Mine will not be good. Although the discussion in class were interesting the official syllabus and what the module assignments said were often different things. The modules weren't opened until the day before the week started which made it difficult to prepare ahead of time and since the assignments often differed from the syllabus you didn't know what to expect. And the instructions were often poorly written and made no sense.
I've taken 8 classes at this school and I'm losing confidence in their program. I've come across badly written e-texts (I mean with literal wrong information--my English Comp e-text had the info for MLA and APA backwards making the tests completely wrong and was very confusing), assignments that were pointless and made no sense, random changes in requirements from the syllabus to the actual assignments, arbitrary requirements for certain assignments that were just stupid. And the description for the English class I'm finishing up was for a completely different class and it's been like that for as many terms as I've been a student and hasn't been fixed yet. The description given even in the syllabus has nothing to do with what the class is about.
This school is going to cost me $15k in the end (although a lot of that is the extra loan payments I get to spend on whatever--this week it was school supplies and shoes for the kids). I've already racked up a huge dept that we have no way of paying off as Patrick isn't working, we're on food stamps to make ends meet, and I don't actually see myself getting a job after I graduate because of my mental illness and instability.
Is it really worth it then to put my family in financial ruin for my own personal gratification? But then will quitting negate the money I already spent as worthless because I got no degree out of it? UGH.
I've been going to school nonstop since January. No breaks between terms, just class after class. Next week is the first week the school has given "off" to students. They changed the schedule so that at the end of each term we get a week break to decompress. Before, one class ended and the next day the next class started.
I have 8 more classes to go before I graduate (8 months) but I haven't registered for any after this next term because the site wouldn't allow me to. Even after they said registration was open, when I tried it the option to register never came up, only to save the classes as "preferred".
I need to go take a pill to calm down.
We have a final portfolio due in photography. I haven't really started it because it should be easy. We have to choose our ten best photos and make a powerpoint about them (and/or write a paper describing them). It's the same thing we did for our final project which I got 98% on. So it's due Tuesday. I've made two slides and wrote the intro to the paper but haven't touched it in a week. I figured I have time. Today I decided to check the module information to make sure I've got all the other assignments squared away. I happen to glance at the description of the portfolio assignment and see there's an extra paragraph. I almost missed it, then reread it five times before I started to fume.
Apparently we are also supposed to take 10 new photos on a theme and submit them in the powerpoint. WHAT THE FUCK! I pulled out my binder for the class where I print the official syllabus and NO WHERE does it say we have to take 10 new photos to include. I am so pissed. I'm shaking I'm so angry. I was not planning on having to take more photos this week. I knew what the assignment entailed and had my week planned to to accommodate that.
Thank god I looked at the module today otherwise I would have failed the assignment not realizing there was added parts. I just can't even describe the anger I'm feeling. We got links to evaluations the other day. Mine will not be good. Although the discussion in class were interesting the official syllabus and what the module assignments said were often different things. The modules weren't opened until the day before the week started which made it difficult to prepare ahead of time and since the assignments often differed from the syllabus you didn't know what to expect. And the instructions were often poorly written and made no sense.
I've taken 8 classes at this school and I'm losing confidence in their program. I've come across badly written e-texts (I mean with literal wrong information--my English Comp e-text had the info for MLA and APA backwards making the tests completely wrong and was very confusing), assignments that were pointless and made no sense, random changes in requirements from the syllabus to the actual assignments, arbitrary requirements for certain assignments that were just stupid. And the description for the English class I'm finishing up was for a completely different class and it's been like that for as many terms as I've been a student and hasn't been fixed yet. The description given even in the syllabus has nothing to do with what the class is about.
This school is going to cost me $15k in the end (although a lot of that is the extra loan payments I get to spend on whatever--this week it was school supplies and shoes for the kids). I've already racked up a huge dept that we have no way of paying off as Patrick isn't working, we're on food stamps to make ends meet, and I don't actually see myself getting a job after I graduate because of my mental illness and instability.
Is it really worth it then to put my family in financial ruin for my own personal gratification? But then will quitting negate the money I already spent as worthless because I got no degree out of it? UGH.
I've been going to school nonstop since January. No breaks between terms, just class after class. Next week is the first week the school has given "off" to students. They changed the schedule so that at the end of each term we get a week break to decompress. Before, one class ended and the next day the next class started.
I have 8 more classes to go before I graduate (8 months) but I haven't registered for any after this next term because the site wouldn't allow me to. Even after they said registration was open, when I tried it the option to register never came up, only to save the classes as "preferred".
I need to go take a pill to calm down.
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Date: 15 Aug 2014 02:40 pm (UTC)I can get the frustration about your assignment. I'm sorry. That sucks ass. :(